It's interesting to see you repeatedly announcing your dislike towards Suharto, even bragging about your involvement in the student movements. How could you justify something that he's done as reflected in your opinion about trading off summary executions for a high GDP? If you think declaring publicly in this forum that you 'risked your life' during the anti-Suharto protests while simultaneously championing foot-stomping democracy ala Suharto and dismissing any critical assessment of his regime will make yourself look good, then you're wrong.
I don't get panic or riled up with your contentious claims, I just laugh them off. In fact, they answered my question of how effective was the New Order's propaganda in shaping people's mind.
Have you started writing for Inside Indonesia yet? Their readers probably want to hear about your insightful thinking of the New Order and view on the killings and GDP.